It's a rainy Saturday night. We just got home from a great service at our church. I am excited about the direction Destiny is headed. People are opening up about being REAL. I mean REALLY REAL.
That's what this blog is about. Finding out who I am, really. My faults and disappointments, my ups and downs. The sad and happy. But, telling you like I really am and dropping this facade of who you think I am.
I still believe I'm a good person. I do good things and am helpful. Who you see is still real, but there is a part of me that needs healing without judgment.
I can't be the only one with these thoughts.
Anyway, here's an update. I've dropped below 200 pounds this week. I've lost a total of 22 1/2 pounds since Oct 1. I am hoping to stay on track and by my birthday be able to wear the really cute clothes I bought in Chicago 2 years ago when I was a size 6.
I am at a point with the work room that we can start moving to the office and get that organized. Tonight I'm working on the garage so we can put all the kitchen remodeling equipment and merchandise.
I have until Tuesday to get our home back in order and clean before the family crew arrives for the holiday programs at school and to celebrate Christmas with Mom and Dad.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
Monday 12/7
It was a crazy weekend! Breakfast with Santa, sleep overs, church, Pampered Chef party, lots of house work...
We did empty (mostly) the kids closet downstairs. I had several boxes for each kid for keep, trash and give away. We threw 2 boxes away, gave 2 boxes away and sorted and organized the rest. We still have to do their rooms, but I feel like we are making progress.
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Church was amazing...If you ever get the chance to visit on-line destinychurch.org and check out the pod casts. This last one was fantastic.
By the way I'm fed up with my computer! It has serious issues and I can write for more than 20 seconds without it messing up. For instance when you start to see missing sections as above it's because the mouse has a mind of its own. Thus, I get frustrated and would rather wait til David is home so I can use his. TTFN because I'm done with this computer! Ciao!
We did empty (mostly) the kids closet downstairs. I had several boxes for each kid for keep, trash and give away. We threw 2 boxes away, gave 2 boxes away and sorted and organized the rest. We still have to do their rooms, but I feel like we are making progress.
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Church was amazing...If you ever get the chance to visit on-line destinychurch.org and check out the pod casts. This last one was fantastic.
By the way I'm fed up with my computer! It has serious issues and I can write for more than 20 seconds without it messing up. For instance when you start to see missing sections as above it's because the mouse has a mind of its own. Thus, I get frustrated and would rather wait til David is home so I can use his. TTFN because I'm done with this computer! Ciao!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Thursday 12/3
Our home is coming along...We have space to walk in the basement and the kids are beginning to take their chores seriously.
We've been running ourselves ragged from one after school program to another. How much is too much? So, I'm thankful soccer season is over. Guitar is almost over. All that's left is gymnastics, brownies, choir and k-kids. Still a lot!
We've been running ourselves ragged from one after school program to another. How much is too much? So, I'm thankful soccer season is over. Guitar is almost over. All that's left is gymnastics, brownies, choir and k-kids. Still a lot!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Monday Morning
Our new garage door opener is installed. In order to install the opener, work had to be done in the garage. Trash, trash, trash. Also, purge, purge, purge! Yippee. My vision is coming to fruition!
The "newer" kitchen will be installed the 18th of December! I am beginning to feel a bit more orderly.
Now, if we could stop getting sick, I would get so much more done. I have 2 little ones home again and doctor appointments. I think I spend more money on doctors than anything else.
Blessings to everyone today!
The "newer" kitchen will be installed the 18th of December! I am beginning to feel a bit more orderly.
Now, if we could stop getting sick, I would get so much more done. I have 2 little ones home again and doctor appointments. I think I spend more money on doctors than anything else.
Blessings to everyone today!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Out of town guests...
The thought occurred to me when we were invited to attend a party...I should stay home with Michael and let David and the girls go. Why? Not sure that a nice semi-formal party is a good venue for our son. Maybe I'm not the best mom in the world that I can't control my son being bored. We brought toys, there would be food and cake. His sisters were there to play with. He lasted all of an hour and 1/2. Then he bolted for the door and ready to leave. After chasing him twice, I said "that's it, were going home." I grabbed the keys, headed to the car and chewed him out royally all the way back to the farm. Threatening that he would not get a birthday party because why should a 6 year old who can't contain himself for a few hours to honor someone else be honored with a party for himself?
Is this too rough? How about he doesn't get to go to the next birthday party for his friends? What if instead, I begin a social blitz? What if I take him to every event expose him to situations that he HAS to adapt too and can't run away from? I have done a disservice to our children by keeping them at home for so many events because I didn't want the hassle and commotion that comes along with bringing your children. I don't enjoy the embarrassment when they are rude or act up during an event. David never really has been one to encourage taking the children to venues either. So, did we screw this up? And can this be rectified this late in the game?
I'm embarrassed that I'm being so candid, but I can't be the only parent who feels this way. I'm just saying it out loud for the world to hear.
I do love my kids. I love our time at home, playing games and talking and snuggling. Sometimes, when we venture out, it's not too bad and we're surprised. I can tell that Michael is maturing...I just can't understand why none of our kids are as outgoing and social as we are, or were growing up. I loved parties and always enjoyed being around my parents and their friends. I was stuck most of the time making up games and hanging out by myself at these gatherings. Not a lot of kids my age to play with. I'm sure I annoyed my parents with I'm bored can we go? I'm hungry, what can I do? Frankly, my parents didn't give in and they ignored me. I didn't want to be like that with our kids. I wanted them to know I care about their feelings and wants and needs. Well, maybe I've just given them too much.
Well, maybe I'm just too tired to really think this through. Any thoughts from anyone else? Besides the suggestion that I might need counseling?
Is this too rough? How about he doesn't get to go to the next birthday party for his friends? What if instead, I begin a social blitz? What if I take him to every event expose him to situations that he HAS to adapt too and can't run away from? I have done a disservice to our children by keeping them at home for so many events because I didn't want the hassle and commotion that comes along with bringing your children. I don't enjoy the embarrassment when they are rude or act up during an event. David never really has been one to encourage taking the children to venues either. So, did we screw this up? And can this be rectified this late in the game?
I'm embarrassed that I'm being so candid, but I can't be the only parent who feels this way. I'm just saying it out loud for the world to hear.
I do love my kids. I love our time at home, playing games and talking and snuggling. Sometimes, when we venture out, it's not too bad and we're surprised. I can tell that Michael is maturing...I just can't understand why none of our kids are as outgoing and social as we are, or were growing up. I loved parties and always enjoyed being around my parents and their friends. I was stuck most of the time making up games and hanging out by myself at these gatherings. Not a lot of kids my age to play with. I'm sure I annoyed my parents with I'm bored can we go? I'm hungry, what can I do? Frankly, my parents didn't give in and they ignored me. I didn't want to be like that with our kids. I wanted them to know I care about their feelings and wants and needs. Well, maybe I've just given them too much.
Well, maybe I'm just too tired to really think this through. Any thoughts from anyone else? Besides the suggestion that I might need counseling?
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Thanksgiving Day
We had a great day. Just David and the kids. It was our first official Thanksgiving day that neither of our parents or friend cooked the dinner. The meal was planned, all items were presented and the kids ate about 3 things. Lot's of left overs and thinking, pizza for next year. Although I do love to cook!
I didn't exactly stick to a diet today, but one day wont do too much damage (I hope). I've been so excited about losing weight that days like this could really set me back. I am an eater. I love to eat junk! Surprisingly, when the cookies came around I did scrape off the icing (which I love). It was too rich! Never, ever do I say that!
We worked so hard getting the house together yesterday so we could enjoy today, and it also stayed in order. We spent most of the day watching movies, snuggling, napping and playing the Wii.
Michael stopped in the middle of the game, looked around and said, "Hey, our whole family is together!" It's true we don't spend enough time together as a family. Each kid usually occupies a specific amount of time during the day, but hardly do we do activities as a family. Even on outings, everyone goes their separate ways.
I've watched friends of ours that when they are with their family, they are really connected. I feel a disconnect sometimes. Maybe it's my Adult ADD that keeps me from focusing. Tomorrow, I'm making an effort to sit with all of them and play a game or do a puzzle.
You might be reading this and thinking this is a no brainer, but for our little family we've become distant over the last few years. There's been a lot of strain on our marriage, health and finances. Instead of turning inward to our family as support we sought avenues to help us cope that weren't family oriented. My goal is to switch that around. For our little family is so important to God that we are weaved tightly together!
Blessings to you and yours! Hope you had a great Thanksgiving!
I didn't exactly stick to a diet today, but one day wont do too much damage (I hope). I've been so excited about losing weight that days like this could really set me back. I am an eater. I love to eat junk! Surprisingly, when the cookies came around I did scrape off the icing (which I love). It was too rich! Never, ever do I say that!
We worked so hard getting the house together yesterday so we could enjoy today, and it also stayed in order. We spent most of the day watching movies, snuggling, napping and playing the Wii.
Michael stopped in the middle of the game, looked around and said, "Hey, our whole family is together!" It's true we don't spend enough time together as a family. Each kid usually occupies a specific amount of time during the day, but hardly do we do activities as a family. Even on outings, everyone goes their separate ways.
I've watched friends of ours that when they are with their family, they are really connected. I feel a disconnect sometimes. Maybe it's my Adult ADD that keeps me from focusing. Tomorrow, I'm making an effort to sit with all of them and play a game or do a puzzle.
You might be reading this and thinking this is a no brainer, but for our little family we've become distant over the last few years. There's been a lot of strain on our marriage, health and finances. Instead of turning inward to our family as support we sought avenues to help us cope that weren't family oriented. My goal is to switch that around. For our little family is so important to God that we are weaved tightly together!
Blessings to you and yours! Hope you had a great Thanksgiving!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I've been sick
The last week has been difficult. I've been battling with sickness and I have zero energy. Plus getting ready for Thanksgiving and all the school activities. It seems that I've slacked on my blogging.
I have lost a total of 20 pounds now. The basement is in much better shape! We actually had a sleep over and all the kids were able to play downstairs!
I've been doing some soul searching and I am making a choice to give up TV. Which is really hard for me because I have a few shows that are my favorites, but there are better things to spend my time on. The only shows I'll watch (aside from all the kids shows that are on during the day...) DIY shows, educational and news. We'll see how that goes.
I've been able to keep up with the FLY lady ideas and I'm getting some great plans together to decorate the house. We've been purging quite a few things and that feels great.
As far as meal planning...still needing to dedicate some time to making plans and lists.
Hope all is well with everyone and keep reading. I'll keep the post coming!
I have lost a total of 20 pounds now. The basement is in much better shape! We actually had a sleep over and all the kids were able to play downstairs!
I've been doing some soul searching and I am making a choice to give up TV. Which is really hard for me because I have a few shows that are my favorites, but there are better things to spend my time on. The only shows I'll watch (aside from all the kids shows that are on during the day...) DIY shows, educational and news. We'll see how that goes.
I've been able to keep up with the FLY lady ideas and I'm getting some great plans together to decorate the house. We've been purging quite a few things and that feels great.
As far as meal planning...still needing to dedicate some time to making plans and lists.
Hope all is well with everyone and keep reading. I'll keep the post coming!
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